As Days Pass

I Stink As A Fren

2006-08-10T06:08:00.000-07:00

Today, finally jolene was online after so long.Jason probably got her a birthday give already,nadene too.Now i am the only one that does not.I am toking to the gal i like the most now but it seem likes she's avoiding me, well thats making me depress.But i dont feel in the next moment i feel happy again as i think of jolene and jason and my childhood frens.I have this feeling suddenly that says"WHO NIDS HER JUSTIN!!"That phrase keep flashing through my head.Jolene today help to console me and that made me cheerful again and as for jason he is as usual telling crappy stuff.LOL.Tml is a meaing day for jolene as it is her a Birthday!!!Well i still havent got her a give but i hope she does not get mad with me:)She told me that she can't stand her parents. I say she should tolerate.After all Everyone MAKES MISTAKES!!!Well i hope i go to sch tml cheerful.For now i rest my case.And jolene, if ur reading this, I AM SRY FOR NOT GETTING U A PRESENT , I WILL FIND A WAY TO REPAY!!!

Behind Time

2006-08-09T06:47:00.000-07:00

Ever wonder that u've been lose in time or trap in it??I feel like every one is a head of me and i am and still behind struggling??I wonder if i would end up like shane???Life to me is full of questions and some are never going to be answered.Things turn to be different nowadays giving the excuse to be in a depressing mood.I am still fine as i got my good frens jolene and jason.Both of them have already stead which kinda of make me jealous though.Yesterday jolene was holding jason's hand in the cinema.I imagine that i would like to recieve the same treatment as jason did (so lucky)Sometimes i think the gal i like the most is going further and further away from me this days.The words i appear to say hurts ppl's feelings and i am constantly changing, but i am not aware of it.I just hope one day she would like me.All i nid is just a chance.All i every hope for is in that chance.So if the day comes it becomes faith.

Unotice

2006-08-08T04:22:00.000-07:00

How do u feel no wan around notice u.Like u are in a whole world to yourself and no one talks to u.Even the gal u like the most is starting to ingore u and would not reply wadever u say.That kind of experience you will never wan to happen.But life is full of surprises and b4 u noe it its gone.I am the one experience it now.Only a few of ur good frens are helping u but because of depression u keep falling till one day free from this burden on u, u are ready to stand like a man again.But ppl wont noe u seem fine on the outside but u are deeply hurt inside because,the gal u like the most is getting farther away from u.Things have change for me,days pass but i feeling depresser by the moment,iwould like to express my feelings but afraid of the outside world of torture.Therefore, ur only ppl to turn to is godand ur good frens.So god pls help to cope in life.And as for my good frens pls help to console me espically jason and jolene :)